Well, is been awhile | analyticalmisery's Blog

Alex isnt more than a fb friend now a days.  He and i parted ways.. Im sure it was my choice.  I remember him not understanding why.. but i cant remember details.  I know that I dont have ill feelings toward him.  Thats how I remember people.  How they make me feel.  So.. I did some dating after that.. and then I was compelled to stay in and isolate.  For two years I had only online relations through a website for the mentally ill.  I had romantic relationships with like 10 men there.  I learned a lot about myself.  

I dont get suicidal anymore.. but I get kind of.. tired for life.  I lack ambition.  I feel I am now on an enlightened path.  To put it bluntly.. which i usually refrain to do... because people just think its pretentious.  Anyway.. Eckhart Tolle seems to be speaking my language these days.  I should write in depth about the process.  B ut I probably cant even remember it accurately so I would get a very biased story.  

Im currently single having come off a 5 month relationship with a sociopath who lied to me and pretended to be in a relationship with me.  It did hurt me.. but luckily I also had already started my journey to feeling better... and I handled it better than any break up in my life to this date... so far. LOL.  Anyway. what the fuck ever... none of this matters.



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